Oh give thanks to the Lord, for he is good, for his steadfast love endures forever! Let the redeemed of the Lord say so, whom he has redeemed from trouble. Psalm 107
Two surgeries in six months…..stay off your feet…..let the recovery process happen! I am afraid to stop it’s really hard for me to sit because I am afraid that I may never be able to get back up. More time to recover… I sit and pray and question my faith and wonder if I will ever be as strong in my faith to get over this hurdle. God hears me….I can feel the prayers that are being said for me…I sit some more…..I think about my life and I try to listen really hard….to what God is telling me… everything is meant to be, but I guess everything happens for a reason. In life you have to take some risks, for you will never know unless you try…I am not proud of some things I have done, but I am grateful for the lessons I’ve learned from them. Sit some more… yes I am grateful…..what else do I hear? I hear to stop questioning faith… it is always there. Stop questioning just believe and let life happen!
I believe when you look for answers serendipity happens……
This week I promised an e-pistle…something short I thought….an expressed thank you note for all the prayers and support during this difficult time….nothing too deep. Then I listened to the sermon last week “How we Pray” and then read the first reading for this week (Psalm 107)….. could it be any clearer? Prayers are answered and my faith gets more developed and stronger everyday so just be thankful!
So, this is my thank you note……
To my Mom: thank you for being my life orchestrator—I know it isn’t easy! I know you always have my best interest in your heart. Your faith carries you. I am so sorry I cried so much. You are my strength —you need to know that.
Dad: thanks for bringing me flowers on my 9th birthday, taking me to the hospital when it was not the best of circumstances, crying when I was hurting or lost and being a provider for our family. You gave me a hug when you left me this last time and you said words that will stay with me forever….don’t envy me because I try really hard to make you proud!
Patrick (my ‘star’): Thank you for loving me more than I love myself and walking with me on my journey and being an agent of making my faith stronger . You continue to be on my side, picking me up, carrying me on your back and offering me the strength to move forward. Thanks!
My brother David: I am thankful that you were concerned about me on all those car rides. I wasn’t sleeping most of the time…. just praying, daydreaming and listening to you talk. I know you are a man of little words, but I love when you talk to me, I am thankful for that most of all. I like to know you are in my life….I love your presence.
My little sister, Katy: I don’t know if I could ever be able to express how thankful I am for you. I may have not been the best big sister but you made me a better person by watching you become a college graduate, wife and mom. You truly are a piece of heaven on earth. Thanks for being Mom’s best friend when we moved away from Michigan, getting me out of a financial bind and letting me wear your pink leather shoes (OK, I admit it…..forgive me).
I thank Carol (my mother-in-law) for knowing that Patrick and I would be together for the long haul—your intuition is incredible! I loved your daily calls while I was in the hospital and your thoughtful cards. Special wink to Carly (my sister-in-law), I really know you care about me…even when I don’t make it easy.
To my Grandpa Alger who gave me the footing in my faith and Grandma Alger who taught me so many things….especially the feeling of being the ‘favorite’. My Grandpa Beecher who tried to find his way….I hope he found peace. I miss you all and thank you for being a part of my life journey.
Grandma May (who celebrated her 98th birthday this last July) I truly believe that you need to be thankful for your life and come to the understanding that you did what you could….just find your way….and trust….life happens. Thank you for making campfires!
Thank you Carrie for letting me be a part of Morgan’s life. Learn by mistakes. Live from regrets. Forgive with love. Smile for every pain. Be thankful for every day.
Thankfully and prayerfully having my Aunt Deb, Uncle Bill, Sarah and Megan, for giving me the stepping stone to find a better way of life in Philadelphia. Thanks Aunt Deb for talking to my mom and telling her it would be OK.
To all my aunts, uncles and cousins—I am truly thankful for everything you have done to make me the person I am today! You all have made a difference in who I am and continue to be.
To the many friends and acquaintances I have met along the way. This would be a good book to write because thankfully I have met many people who have given me great stories and are the building blocks of my life. Special thanks to Doug, Teresa, John S., Woody and Kristen (Freja & Matilda).
….and to Old First who has given me the support to grow in my faith. I took the right turn when I found you. Thanks for letting me be a part of this community and for all your prayers and concerns in my time of need. Thanks to Michael who stands by me and lets me grow in my faith and in my life.
The inside of a thank you note usually says something meaningful and you sign your name with a little personal note. I don’t know what more I can say but to thank God for listening, making my faith stronger and sitting with me while I continue to heal, walking beside me when I am able and knowing that my faith will become stronger and stronger. THANK YOU!